I was chatting to a referring dentist on the phone the other day (someone I haven't spoken to for a while)
They told me they were following the blog which I was surprised about but they said "despite how depressing it is sometimes" I was grateful for that and grateful for the feedback but this is not an apology about a depressing blog.
What is written in these pages is not some Hollywood story about a life that's perfect where nothing goes wrong, tragedies don't occur and shit doesn't get thrown in the way. It's supposed to be a letter to myself of how things were at the stages that I went through in my life and how I felt about it but also something I can share openly with other people.
I make no excuses for the fact that things have been bad the last little while and there are other blogs later which will explain exactly what happened - much more than a sore knee, a fracture of my son's front tooth or difficulty at work (they're for later on)
Sometimes I look back at what i've published and think it's a bit sad at time but life is just a little bit sad at times and that's what life is like. I refuse to accept this media painted vision of perfection and shiny bright object chasing that portrays us as failures if we're not thin enough, fast enough, tall enough, rich enough or beautiful enough.
I don't think life is about staring into each others eyes, I think it's about standing side by side and facing the things that come. I think that's what builds relationships and that's what builds friends. I think that's what builds heroes and builds the character of people.
In the end it's all futile. We run around like ants on a hill chasing after silly little things which are generally meaningless when it comes down to the most important parts of our life but that doesn't mean that we shouldn't try to make a difference and it doesn't mean that we shouldn't 'be the change that we want to see in the world'. In fact it's the opposite - it means we must do that. We must shake off the shackles of the little bits of crap that seem to become so important until a major event happens and sythes away the rubbish to show you what really is your purpose.
Some time ago I wrote a blog about spread betting where I tried to suggest that most important thing to do was just to shift the line fractionally towards the good side as much as you could and over time it would be very good. This is so important in the difficult times for all of us. As hard as it seems making a tiny difference, just one minute after the next or one hour after the next is the way we get to a better, happier, more fulfilled place.
As I write this I am a little bit sad at the moment for various reasons but that's ok because I will be happy again soon because i'll push my line to the right and i'm off to do something to do that now. Why don't you do the same as much as you can - let's all push our lines to the right because that's what we should do all the time and that's what makes things better.
Blog Post Number: 1036
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