It is fascinating having the space to explore the things I could write about on a daily basis. There are 6-7 ideas a day, amazing, but nowhere near the time to get them all down. I would need to remove myself from everything to do that and I'm just not prepared to make that sacrifice at the moment.
It is not to say that having all the ideas means the blog is done and dusted by 10.00am giving me the day, yesterday went on at 5.15 and I almost missed it again.
Today I wrestled with 3 options, one about CTL (chronic training load), one which was brilliant that I had on the dog walk then promptly forgot and this.
A large part of the inspiration for taking time out came from Ed Sheeran and his "year away", at first I was fascinated by the fact he would do that then it made complete sense.
I was particularly impressed by the message he left on twitter basically saying he was gone and those that loved him would understand and those that didn't, didn't matter.
I'm not plugged in to to so much "culture" at the moment but heard last night that he was 1 and 2 in the charts for the second week with his return singles (the essence of creating scarcity and all that), not surprised.
So I listened to the songs and liked the first but heard the second.
It turns out that this time off work, away from the rat race, all along was about seeing and hearing.
Over the years I have got worse at that, if I was ever any good at it, running and rushing back for more and not noticing the wonderful things around me or paying any attention to the great things I have done in the past or I am doing now.
Castle on the hill by Ed Sheeran reminded me of that today, listen to it here but read the lyrics as it goes, that is the key.
To listen to something is one thing but to hear it is quite another, I had lost a lot of the ability to do that and am regaining much of that again.
This break is too short to really reclaim what is gone but it will start a process of changing my life to see and hear better. That will make me better and benefit everyone around me.
Every time I take one of my children's hands it is a gift and when did it ever get so busy that I stopped seeing that.
I don't think any of us get to here on purpose it is all with the best intentions but here we arrive.
"I'll be with you in a minute darling, just need to do/check/write this first", and then I looked and they were grown up.
This will not stop me at work, on the contrary it will make the time much more valuable, more cherished.
I will suffer time wasters less but be able to let people do much more of what I did because it will allow me the space to see farther and longer.
The deeper into this I get the more the curtain rises and I will not let it fall again.
CC Sab analytics - 180117
weight - 13st 5lbs (84.8kg) - Going up! Training brilliant eating awful....try harder!
Waist - 38 inches. Same old same old
Chest 39, Same again
BP - 125/75 pulse - 65. Still good here, later in the day so pulse up.
CTL - 56.3 deliberately slowed this down as was going too fast. Great number and tested my fitness with Simon today for 300w on an ftp test, highest ever for me.
finally as always the photo from Stuart is here, this is number 5, not sure if any changes are going on here. This will be the last update for 2 weeks, I'll explain why later.
Blog Post Number: 1187
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