As you read this post, I'll be on holiday for 2 weeks, shut down, no laptop, everything left at work for the first time in a long time, I'll be disconnecting, and I'm desperate and I need it, and it's essential.
I'll come back and I'll want to go away again, somewhere else, somewhere exotic for reasons that I'm not quite sure, maybe I think that it looks like I'm successful if I travel somewhere, maybe I think it makes me a better person because I experience different places, maybe I think it's good for my ego. I'm not sure, I don't know.
The last time I saw Frank Turner play at Rock City was Callum (an amazing night), he explained his Wanderlust. He explained that whenever he arrives home, his feet start itching and he's ready to go again, somewhere else and as soon as he starts to go, he wishes he were home. A cycle that repeats itself over and over.
He's done over 3000 gigs in probably most of the countries of the world, but it's interesting how he explains the fact that while he is away, he doesn't really want to be away, but while he's at home, he wants to be away.
Every time someone asks me to go somewhere, I tell myself a story of how wonderful it is, but there is a cost for this, and there is a price to pay.
The actual truth is that everything would probably be better if I were more stable and more secure, if I just kept my head down and kept doing the things that we do here that make us better and better.
Perhaps it's time for a little bit more of that.
I'm already booked up quite a lot for the second half of the year, but not quite so much for next year, so maybe it's time to say ‘actually I'm ok’, and have another one of those things that I do, and I just shut myself away.
When I do that, I look after myself and the people around me better. When I do that, I'm fitter, sharper. When I get to the fitter, sharper stage, I get wanderlust, and I want to go away, and then it pushes me back again, a vicious cycle.
I'm not the only person who gets this, but the truth is, I don't need to travel, it's not really my job, and it doesn't pay the bills.
Much to think about in these 2 weeks off.
Blog Post Number - 4241
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