Last week was a bit of a sh*t week, really. I was off work for a full week (the first time in ages), Alison was away with the girls, Callum was in and out and around to different places, and I was sick.
Not super externally sick, but the cold, the one that you used to get when you finished up for holiday, it's just that I haven't finished up for holiday for ages, so it felt like I got it double. It was kind of day on and day off; I'd wake up one day and think, I think I'm on the back of that, I'm on the way, and then by the end of the day, I would be wrecked, and the next day, almost a Wipeout, followed by waking up the following day and thinking I'd kicked out. That happened 3 times.
Later in the week, I met up with someone, doesn't matter who it is, really, someone very close to me, someone who also had some time off, a bit similar to mine, only they were working a little bit too, had a little bit of freedom.
We met, sat down together, and they asked me how I was. I said I felt sh*t, said I was down on myself because I hadn't used the time I had properly. I said that the truth was that when Alison goes away, I lose my spark or my impetus, and I can't go forward. I stay up too late watching stuff that I shouldn't really watch on television, that is of no value, I eat shit, I don't train, I'm actually a bad version of myself. It's a demonstration of how my wife makes me a much better version of myself on a day-to-day basis, all the time.
The guy that I was with said, “Thank God for that. I'm glad that happens to you too”. I think he had some vision of me in his mind that was better than the one I actually am. We were able to talk about it for a little while, share our thoughts, and understand that we'd be back to normal in a minute.
That's the joy, isn't it, of sharing, of honesty, of openness, of not trying to create a veneer around yourself for other people to compare themselves to that makes you seem like you're perfect and they're not.
Quite the opposite, actually; I seek out the honest ones.
Blog Post Number - 4245
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