Every week, we have a Tuesday meeting at the practice. It's like a town hall meeting where we all meet up, and I talk about some of our values and philosophy for 10 or 15 minutes, and someone asks a question, and we will only leave the room once the question is asked.
It's allowed us to follow lots of things that have happened, including terrible things in the media and press; we started it through COVID so we could cover that off, but also tragedies that occurred.
One of the questions I had a few weeks ago was what my boggart was.
For those of you who don't know what a boggart is, it's from Harry Potter. It's when the teacher has the wardrobe in front of them, and what's in the wardrobe is your worst fear. The boggart can sense what your fear is and present itself as that to you in front of your face, and you have to be quick enough to overcome it without becoming too frightened.
It's very similar to what's in Room 101 in the book 1984 by George Orwell; it basically represents your greatest fear.
It took me a week to think about this and figure it out, but my greatest fear is not being finished.
I have too much to do, too many things to see, too many people to meet, too many things to try and achieve, and I'm worried I'll run out of time.
I have a recurring dream where I wake up in a cold sweat because I haven't studied for my finals. It's like that thing where I realise that suddenly someone's going to tap me on the shoulder and tell me there's been a mistake and I shouldn't have been allowed to do this all along.
And so, it's the start of the year, right?
We do that resolution thing where we make a promise to ourselves that we will become something else, that we will lose two stone or finish an Ironman or stop drinking at least for January or any other nonsense that will be almost impossible.
But for me, it's what I tell Callum all the time: I never want to meet the person I could have been.
I never want to wish I'd been something else and lose the effort or the motivation to get to that thing.
I never want to stand face to face in front of what I could have achieved if I'd only done a little bit more, and so for me, as usual, that would be my resolution.
Blog Post Number - 3674
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