I'm not keeping score against you or anybody else.
I'm not even keeping score against me.
Maybe it's because of the things that I've seen and done and the places that I've been (psychologically, I think more than anything else), but I've realised that there is only one' end' for me now, and everyone knows what that is and we're all heading in the same direction.
So there's no crossing the finish line, there's no winning, there's no retiring, there's no buying something that will complete the set or the deal, there's no 'Once I have the next holiday, all will be better', there's no 'It will be fine when I get to Christmas".
Once I realised that there was real peace to be had, there was much less anxiety, stress, or difficulty in chasing clouds and air and ethereal objects that I'll never, ever catch.
And so, for me, it's just a day-to-day process trying to do that thing, move it along, try my best, maybe not, maybe better today.
I love that quote from the Marigold Hotel movie.
"Everything will be all right in the end. If it's not all right, it is not yet the end."
And my end will be all right.
I won't really realise it, and then I won't be there.
And so, until then, I will plod along daily, driving over the bumps in the road, freewheeling downhill when I can working uphill when I can't.
And all the little things that come along, which upset so many people, will upset me less, I hope, and let me see the world in just a much more clear way.
Blog Post Number - 3907
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