24 blogs into to the "typing it everyday and publishing it myself" thing and I nearly missed it today.
This is the second time I have taken things to the wire in a process that demands quite astonishing commitment to the cause.
If I lived in a world where it was "just me" then writing each day would be easy (or certainly much easier).
I don't and it isn't.
Writing every day is making a promise and failing to find the Time is breaking it.
Nobody cares if I miss one but if I do why not miss another and another and then it's gone and I have given up.
Today (Saturday), I had many other things to occupy my time. Saturday's are hardest as everyone is around and I find myself waiting for a slot to type.
Alison thinks it's all "a load of crap" anyway so I need to find time when it doesn't get in her way.
Once the time comes I need inspiration to write something. No as easy as it may seem.
I write notes during days as the thoughts and ideas come but mostly, by the time I come back to them the thought and the moment are both gone.
I really need to do it right here right now but that is tough.
Once that is done and it is typed I copy it into Wordpress and try to think of an image and collect it and insert it and publish it.
A lot of hard work for seemingly no return.....but I love it.
Making a promise like this is no different to any of the millions of promises all us make each and every day.
I promise myself I will exercise.
I promise myself I won't eat rubbish.
I promise myself I won't be grumpy or I'll be better with the kids or I'll be more tolerant.
Promises are hard to keep, forever, or even for a while.
Facebook made the process of "acquiring accountability" easier, by telling lots of people and then trying to live up to that. By promising to them.
It got diluted by false promises and became less effective.
The promise you make silently to yourself when no one else is watching is the hardest to keep and the most satisfying to beat.
Momentum is the key.
One day at a time one challenge at a time.
At least a few people watch to see if this comes and I am so grateful for that I can't tell you how much. It makes the process of finding space and inspiration on days like today much easier.
Sadly, for me though, this isn't the most important promise I need to keep to myself.
Next week I'll talk about Facebook, and emails and interruption and peace.
Blog Post Number: 1184
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