Wrecked!
By the plan I wrote last October, by now I was 12 stone 10 (13 stone 8)
By the plan I wrote last October, by now I was springing out of bed 6 times a week and knocking off 30 miles on my bike on a Tuesday morning before work (just the getting out of bed is impossible, let alone the 30 miles)
In short, it isn't coming together and it hasn't come together. With 7 weeks to go I am a stone of my target weight so that is only the equivalent of putting 7 bags of sugar in a rucksack and carrying it around my race.
This time last year before the Outlaw Half, I was beginning to think things were coming together pretty well, this year... i'm really thinking they're not.
4:45 has entirely gone, I am no faster on the swim and unlikely to be any quicker on the bike or the run. It's hard not to be disappointed and to look for reasons why it has happened but in the end, it's down to me. The work tide comes in, it floods everything else, I try to protect my family and the training goes out the window.
One of the main reasons the work tide comes in is because I just have this insufferable habit of saying "yes" to everything I am asked to do instead of protecting the things that are really important.
I am not about to give up on the Outlaw Half but my target changes against the old Triathlon Adage of 'complete, compete and conquer' whereas, last October, I was looking in the 'compete / conquer' bracket, I am now sitting in the 'complete' bracket.
I will line up on 1st June and be delighted that I am healthy enough to stand on the start line. I won't look good in Lycra but I will be able to think of people that didn't make it to the start line who wish they had, for whatever reason, and I will compete with a smile on my face whatever the clock says at the end.
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