In Frank Turner's 3016th show that I wrote about here, he had a short monologue about wanderlust, he talked about how he craves to travel and explore (and he does extensively), and now he's desperate to be away and travel around the world but when he gets around the world, he gets terribly homesick.
And so what he does is he comes back, but after about a day and a half, he needs to go again.
I get this, I understand it, I think instinctively, and some people (like me) are like this, and some people are not, and that's cool, isn't it? But what I get is that I can't sit still in the same place; I crave routine, and I set it up.
I have the privilege of designing exactly how my life can be on a day-to-day basis, and I put routine into that life, and I schedule it, and then, like a bicycle wheel rolling down the road, I stick a huge big branch in between the spokes and f*ck up the entire system because I'm not for routine and I'm not for regular; I want the excitement of the challenge of the crisis, of a different thing in front of me and then I get it, and I crave routine again.
It's been a cycle that has defined my life from the earliest stage, and let's be clear: it's unlikely to change now.
If you find yourself in the same position, in the same psychological space, it's cool; make the most of it.
Sometimes you're winning, and sometimes you're losing, and that's okay because as long as you win just a fraction more than you lose in the end, you win.
Blog Post Number - 4146